I'm putting some of the details here so that I don't forget them later. Feel free to stop reading here if this is more than you need ....=)
I went into labor just before 3pm (though it took me about an hour to figure out that I was having contractions and not just random stomach cramps). Iain was at work for a night flight so I called him to give him a head's-up and tell him I'd call him back if they got closer together (when I first called at 3:30, they were about 6 minutes apart and by the time I called him back at 4:30, they were about 2-3 minutes apart). When I called back, he was already on his way home (they decided to cancel the flight he was going to fly). My mom had gotten into town the night before (a trip that had been scheduled for over a month) so she stayed with the girls while Iain and I left for the hospital (including a stop through the Chick-Fil-A drive-thru so that Iain would have energy for the evening). =) By the time the doctors checked me around 6pm, I was 6cm dilated and they confirmed that I was in pre-term labor. Because Lael was in the breech position, they needed to check that the oncoming doctor wouldn't require a C-section (she didn't), and they thought that because he was 7 weeks early, he would be small and it would be a relatively quick labor and delivery. Meanwhile, at home, my mom put the girls to bed and then got to the hospital at about 8:15 (we had one friend come and stay with the girls while another drove her to the hospital), so it was really nice to have both Iain and my mom in the room when Lael was born at 9:53.
Because he was breech, his legs were born first and he was moving them around while I was delivering his tummy (which was quite large due to the amniotic fluid which had built up inside his bladder). Unfortunately, during the delivery of his abdomen, the umbilical cord was compressed and Lael passed away at some point during the last 20 minutes of pushing.
Immediately after delivery, they put Lael on my chest. Iain and I got to spend the next 6 hours with him, holding him, kissing him, talking to him, singing to him, telling him about his sisters and just loving him. It's time we wouldn't trade for anything.
Our little angel is beautiful and our hearts are broken because we will never be able to watch his first steps, see him play with Audrey and Avery, and hear his sweet voice. But I can imagine my own daddy rocking Lael to sleep and melting at his smiles. And we rejoice that he is playing at the feet of Jesus.
4 comments:
Allison...so sorry for the enormous loss of your sweet, precious baby boy...words cannot express our sorrow for your family but knowing he went straight into the arms of Jesus I'm sure might bring some comfort to you and Ian. Praying for your family...love you!
Ash & family
We love yuou guys and are praying for God's comfort during this time.
Thank you for sharing your story and your and Lael's journey. It is precious and special and so good to know that although you won't spend time together on this earth, you will all be reunited in Heaven one day. We're praying that his little life has an impact for God beyond what any of us can imagine! With love, Kristen and Jonathan
Truly sorry for the loss of your sweet son. Not to overstep any bounds, but if you're looking for grief resources and support, please consider http://www.anchoredbyhope.com/ and http://grieveoutloud.org/. They seem to help a lot of families. Wishing yours healing and peace.
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